Ordinary wednesday

Today i woke up three times. Yes three! i had breakfast, showered, and somehow my body dragged me to bed for another hour. Three more weeks and i am done my first semester at Devry. I am happy excited, scared, anxious...all i have to do is be in my books for the rest of this semester.

Today i am trying to finish up all my weeks worth of college work. Its a new way of doing things. A very wise man told me so...;)

I am still trying to find a gym. I think i am going to go to NYCS. Looks pretty clean, open at reasonable hours, and they are situated everywhere around town. Yes that will be what I'll ask for my bday from my parents. A gym membership! not too bad. I am going to Boston in two weeks to go see a family friend and and visit Harvard. Always wanted to do that...

Montreal....what i still call home!

Oh I just came back from a beautiful weekend from Montreal, where I was able to see my loved ones and all my great friends! I miss them so much. I can't even describe you how time flies when you are enjoying something...well this weekend sure flew by in a millisecond.And every touch, laugh, conversations were worthy of it. The trip was a smooth one, we drove, me and my dad for about 6 hours till we hit the inevitable Montreal traffic. The air even smelt different...i loved every second. I went home, straight up to my room! the best room in the whole wide world! lol then i got ready and had butterflies in my stomach while i was on my way to see better half who was already impatiently waiting for me. The first person i saw was his sister! Then my man showed up and i couldn't take the smile off my face...ill i was saying was " Oh my god" "wow" ...speachless.The next day i got the chance to go for supper with my closest friends...we gossiped, laughed, ate, drank, talked...a great night that ended too quickly...from then it was all a second before we were on the way back to the Empire state. Was a hard drive back, leaving everyone, knowing some needed me now more than ever, but as we got closer to NYC, i remembered why i was here, I was here for me, for us, to get an amazing education and have a bright beautiful successful future...all the pain, the hard work, the distance will be worth it after all...that's what i keep telling myself ;)

Feeling the pressure...

With our semester half way done i can definitely feel the pressure mounting up. Everyday i spend more and more time at school, trying to be up and ahead of time with my stuff. I find myself exhausted almost every night and morning. Now i do understand people who say that their favorite thing to do is sleep!

This morning, my friend came to pick me up and had some girly girl time. We went to get a manicure and pedicure while reading OK! magazine, and having All my children play in the background. It felt good to get a little pampered. We all need to every now and then. Then she took me to Forest park and surrounding areas. WOW!! I've never seen such big and beautiful trees in my life! it was beautiful...and the houses?!! Indescribable, and crazy expensive. I certainly know someone who can appreciate that beauty ;) It also gave a motivation of some sort to work hard. It was a nice day...

I'm off to eat sushi now! YEYEYEYEY

Not my day....

Today, i have class from 9am to 10pm back to back! Yes, i had to reschedule my sociology class that i will miss this Friday. Oh! it is 4pm and have a minute for myself, 6more hours to go...

I am excited to go back to Montreal. Too bad the condition, and the free time of some arent too permitting ;( It is getting colder my mom was telling me this morning on the phone. At night it goes down to 5 degrees! Brrr...already! Don't you ever wonder why things happen to us a certain way, at certain moments? why us? why now? or why not now? lol I don't know if i believe in the concept of timing;" it wasn't a good time"," if it would of happened 10 years ago it would of worked"no. I think it wasn't meant to happen that's all. But sometimes life really can make things hard , or as we see it unfair to our eyes. To some, life puts them through a constant struggle, only to teach them that the basis of their foundations are completely wrong, or because, life knows thy can put up with a lot too. On the other hand, you have those to whom everything falls in place before they even have to move a hair.... It is scary how one can change his life in a nanosecond! Think about it. I can close my adorable little Acer laptop, get my Visa and head down south for 2 months...crazy? absolutely. The impact that any decision we make everyday can alter our life's, to degrees we can not even perceive now, in our present, or even the close future...

Me and my in depth thoughts....sometimes i think i have a headache because i don't let my brain rest....
How about I let it be for just a minute....:)

Last minute....

Wow! I always believed i worked better last minute, under pressure....but , today i took in to another level! i took it down to the last minute, last millisecond! But i made it, like i always do! Today, i cough myself dreaming about the day i graduate, and the money I'll be making. I think i need to get off LaLa land because my thoughts took me to levels where i was daydreaming having, 3 cars, a yatch, a mansion in Spain, Italy, States, and perhaps down South! And that's not all.... why not work extra hard and squeeze in a private jet! hahhah....I'm laughing and i am sure you are too...but who know where dreams can take us...only time will tell! Today i worked on school projects and assignment for 6 hours straight....never though I'll be able to sit and do this much work nonstop. But when Time is ticking there is adrenaline and oh so so much will power! I'm happy about my work today. Every night, I'm going to go to bed and think to myself of the things i accomplished that day. I'll try to have a proud face and a smile on everyday!

I got to help my lab partner understand the concepts of binary number....here i am getting lost in AND, OR, NOR world....;)

Empire State of Mind....

What a long day I had today, I just managed to escape from all the chaos and have a minute with my beloved computer. Today,I saw my little sister. She is loving New York, and even more Brooklyn. Her apartment is breathtaking, in a nice area. I am truly happy for her. Today she called me and said "I can't wait to see you, I miss you" I don't hear that often from her...so it was really nice seeing her. My dad and I took her and the girls to Costco to do the month's grocery...and God it was expensive. They'll be good for at least a good month!

After spending the day shopping, we went back to the apartment and i fell in LOVE!! yes in love again with an amazing song called EMPIRE STATE OF MIND! wow, so uplifting, and good. I love it! Tomorrow i will have to wake up early and do a lot of work because I'm leaving to Montreal Friday, so my objective is to finish everything by Thursday night, so i can spend quality time with my mother, and friends in Montreal! I can't wait...I just can't!

Empire state of mind: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm61weFrK4c

I'm thoughtless, and I though this on my own....

...It's already been 10 minutes my mind is in space....

Let me try this again. Don't you find it weird that some people are way more affected by some events than others? Is it because they are more sensitive? or is it because the other doesn't care? What makes a human heart more fragile? Is is the hurt it has seen and gone through? or is it simple genetics? I believe all heart needs a shield...a gold platinum shield! this world is one cruel world...I believe i am so sensitive that ill be working all my life to make my heart stronger, more resistance, where that Gold shield won't be needed anymore...But will that make my heart numb and make me heartless?? I think i might be confusing a Strong heart, someone who is not affected by much to selfishness...I'm sure you've all seen that everyone (or almost) is living for themselves....It is human nature after all to be selfish, we all are guilty of it...But how come the Pope , or Mother Theresa, or Gandhi....or even me(most of the time) aren't? Sometimes i find it to be working against us....our unselfishness, our selflessness...you give too much ....too much before giving enough to yourself...and the other is never and never will be satisfied!

Thoughtful day it is today....
Give something today, perhaps love, a kiss, a dollar or even a smile :)

A little cold...

Oh! I'm still full from last night's supper. Me and my father decided to venture out and try a new restaurant in the neighbourhood. I don't remember the name of the place but it was something along the lines of XYZ Grill. Wasn't bad at all. I ordered a plate of pasta, and my father ribs. I didn't think i would finish my humongous plate let alone 1/4 of my dad's! Guess I was hungry,and oh how well did i sleep. I always find it easier when i am extremely full to fall asleep. Another thing that is so so bad is with my contact lenses, it is always easier...weird no?Last night i bought myself boots as well. Must admit is is getting cold here in New York city. I really am wondering how winter is going to be around here...Are there going to be school closers because there is a couple of centimeters of snow? That would be really funny, but it was always what we would here in Canada, " New York (or any other state) in a state of emergency with 10 cm of snow fall last night..."lol ok maybe i am exaggerating a little but i always found it funny. Why? because I am sure nothing compares to waking up to a snow storm where you cannot even see your car because there is snow up to 1.0meter high!!! Ah good memories. Tonight i am still debating on going to see Sander Van Doorn at Pasha. I highly doubt that I'll go...I'm not too disappointed considering i saw him at Montreal 2 weeks before i left. Yes, you guessed he is another of my favorite DJ! :)

Close my eyes Sander Van Doorn: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmo-qkgb2u4

A slow day...

It was 10 am when i opened my eyes this morning. I am not a late sleeper so this was fairly late for me. I guess my body needed it. I decided I'm going to go to the movies this weekend. Never been here in New York. I don't think it will be different other than the price.

Today i was thinking of the concept of change and moving...how healthy is it to change location? is it better than staying in a routine? I guess it depends on the situation. I personally don't like change at all. I like the comfort of my everyday life routine. Now don't get me wrong i do need some sort of spiciness but i think my "living on the edge,crazy, adventurous,last second decision making" boyfriend adds that to my life! That's why i love him. As much as it drives me crazy i do enjoy it when my days takes a completely different turn because of his impulses. I Love it!But i am good as well because i keep things grounded i believe. I will be the one putting on the breaks when it needs to be done!

today is a slow day, i am at school although i don't have class. it is the only way i can get ahead. Plus it is ugly out so i am not tempted to venture out in the city....

This morning comes a step too soon....

AAAhhhh! I'm still yawning and its nearly 1;30pm. What a hard morning this was. My alarm rang at 6am but i was dreaming about an alarm ringing too. I guess i thought i was dreaming...never the less i made it to school. I just recalled an episode that happened last Friday September 11th. As we spoke about it in class, i was eager to go out, and see if really New Yorkers behaved differently on this remembrance day. All in all i didn't notice a difference really other than a few concerts here and there. I was empathetic, and I tried to imagine this beautiful city in panic. Must of been total chaos. Ne how, i get on the bus and there is an older lady chatting with herself and laughing. I think she was drunk or simply crazy. A few bus stops later, this other woman steps up. So the old lady says something, and all of a sudden it is a fight! Yes! a real fight!Punching,slapping, pushing, shoving, grabbing hair, yelling, screaming, insulting! woawwww! Insane! a girl called the cops i believe describing the scene. The funny thing is that the bus driver kept on driving like nothing was happening. That was a NYC experience lol. It could of been worse, my worried boyfriend told me, when i called him. And he was right, One of them could of pulled out a knife and anybody could of been at the wrong place at the wrong time.

Two days ago, I was chatting with my man, and telling him about this blog, and asking him to follow it because he can get in my head a bit. What do you know the next hour he calls me and says he, himself created a blog!! Adorable no? well i find. I guess he finds it somewhat therapeutic to write his thought down as well. An online diary! :) 10 days left till I'm back to cold Montreal!!! :))))

What a headache!

So after her short surprise visit, my mom took the bus back to Montreal last night. I love her so much. She did 16hrs of traveling just to come for two days.

This morning i woke up with an intense headache. Couldn't, drink or eat. I finally decided to pack up my stuff and head to school to do some much needed work. I can't believe i didn't faint on the subway! Ouch, my head is still pounding. This weekend, we decided me and my father, that we'll go back to Montreal next week on the 25th of September. Its great, but i was expecting to return this weekend. Another 10 days! I know that these are going to be the longest 10 days ever. I wish days can be seconds till then! My friends, and boyfriend were disappointed but still excited to see me. I know I'll be missing a great concert by Tiesto, yet another world renowned DJ, that exact weekend here in NYC. But nothing compares going back home to see the people I love...

Today, I had a soup and candies. Maybe that's why my head is still hurting. I am really really craving a poutine. It is a French dish if you want. Its customary to Quebec. It is french fries, with sauce and cheese, mmmmmmmmmm! Let me go grab a bite ;)

Just be by Tiesto:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPKQKX5JWqY

A Touch of Dutch

Wow, what a busy and awesome weekend i had! First off, Saturday morning, i came to school to meet up my friend Irene. With her we drove to Manhattan, near Wall street and Pier 11. Parking was extremely hard to find. Seems like the hole Financial district is " No parking in this area anytime". After a few turns around the block we finally managed to find parking. Then we headed to Pier 11 and took a Taxiboat to Governors Island. It was raining and cold, but i was so hyper because one of my favorite Dj Armin Van Buuren was performing. It was an extremely private event. I got to see him get off the van IN FRONT OF MY FACE!! i was star struck! I will try to post the video tonight. On Governors Island there was a special Dutch festival event. Full of Dutch people, and explains the concert by Armin who himself is Dutch. To all of our surprises in the middle of the show the Dutch Royal Family was introduced on stage! Wow, i never thought of seeing a real Prince and Princess in my life! It was pretty awesome. I called my boyfriend to give him a little taste of what was happening and make him a bit envious;) Well it sure did work, he's starting to fall in love with New York from Montreal! What was also beautiful is that we had a great view of the city and boats passing by...breath taking! I'm loving New York more and more....My dad then calls to inform me my mommy came down to visit, the surprises keep on coming!!

The city is Fashion...

Today is a good day, not because i woke up late, but because it it the beginning of NYC Fashion week! How exciting!

Today my day started off a bit late. Then, around 8am, i get informed that Armin Van Buuren is coming back to NYC to perform for free at Governors Island, for the New Island Festival! Fantastic!! I'm loving New York every day more and more...As i mentioned before this city really has a lot happening ALL THE TIME! i mean who's better than New Yorkers? ( I'm starting to consider myself as one although i shouldn't quite yet ;0))We have the US Open going on with the biggest names in Tennis, We have the NYC Fashion Week with the biggest names in fashion, we have great, worlds renowned musicians every single week, and i am sure i am missing out on plenty!! If only we all had time to enjoy everything. Today i was talking to my boyfriend, and we came to the conclusion that no matter how hard you work, how things are going in your life, how smart, successful, punctual you are, Time is always ahead of you. It is the one thing that us humans are slaves of, and that we will never defy. Tic Toc Tic Toc, we have to rush to be on time for class, to finish our assignment, to pay our bills, to be home, to catch the plane....Trust me, with my short stay in New York i definitely noticed that New Yorkers are rushing again time....rush rush rush.....The streets are full from 6 am to 3am, people rushing going to work....it really is the city that never sleeps.Maybe that's what New Yorkers need, a bit more sleep...

Song of the day: Not enough Time, Cosmic Gate

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gme-CzpWKY

A better day than the day before...

Last night i had trouble sleeping again...i think i think too much. Too many thoughts go throught my analytical brain. I analyze and analyze over and over...its exhausting. This morning, woke up at 6am, and fell back asleep till about 10am. Today is one of my days off so i have to make it count. I want to get ahead in my school work and pass by Bryant park to see what's happening there for Fashion week! I believe it starts tomorrow. One of my biggest dreams was to be or in Milan or in NYC on fashion week walking down the runway (I've given up on this one) or watching a live show! I'm a step closer this year; i am in New York city, and tomorrow is the beginning of Fashion week. But unfortunately i believe its invitation only, or if you know the designers personally. And unfortunately my best Friends list doesn't include Donna Karan, Carolina Herrera... Too bad...maybe ill have the chance to run into a few celebrities considering the city will be full of them!

Tonight I'm meeting up with my little sister. Ill try to find a good restaurant for us to go try. there are so many in this great city. I have to start somewhere. Alright, let me get on with my day...

Song of the day: Fine without you, Armin Van Buuren
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBsdoUZmi9s

What a nightmare...

This morning, i woke up in a sweat. Having left the conversation with my boyfriend on a horrible topic, no wonder i had a nightmare. At least it wasn't the real world...thank the Lord. I find myself to be very edgy these days. Everything and anything irritates me. Perhaps it is because i am out of my element? Only time will tell...The day started off bad. The alarm rang way too early...and i was and still am in a weird mood. I feel like i need to find something to loose myself in, to take the edge, the stress away everyday. It seems that the stress keep piling and piling up and I'm releasing it on the wrong people. Last night what was great was my good friend calling from Montreal. We talked for over 30 minutes. I found it therapeutic. Friends are definitely a very important element in my life. these days i even find myself questioning who my real friends are, who are the people that would go out of their way, out of their comfort zone, to help me or make me feel comfortable. I do it to others. Maybe even too much. I tend to help the people i love without boundaries...its just the way i am, but i guess it would be nice to have these actions reciprocated.

5 minutes just past, i was daydreaming, happens a lot these days...

Monday, Labor day ....

Monday.

Before i came down to NYC, i was planning on going back to Montreal every second weekend. This was suppose to be one of them. My father was right, there is no way i could manage school and go back every second week. It really is too bad because i am starting to get home sick... My next trip perhaps will be in a week or two. It will force me to finish and be ahead on school work even more! :)

Today i didn't do much. This morning i decided to go to Starbucks to finish up my school work and get ahead on some discussions. After getting ready, i took the bus and walked for a bit, only to find to my surprised the Starbucks completely jammed pack!! What are people doing there on Labor day Monday? grrrrrr couldn't sit anywhere where there was a plug. So frustrating.I decided to grab a tea and head back home.

Tonight, ill go for a little walk and change the thoughts in my head...i need to find a gym. i feel like I'm becoming "mushy" and loosing all my muscles.Plus it is proven that doing exercises increases hormones that make you happy!! :) There is soooo much junk food available here in NYC. I mean every corner you turn there are these food kiosks....

song of the day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBN4oUT9lAs

Yesterday was a great day continued...

After being at the Main stage we decided to venture out to another area before my sister left. There i met this girl named Renee. She was very " hyper" to say the least. I decided to stick with her. It was a great idea. After meeting a few of her Friends, i sneaked in the VIP section where, we had free water, food, nice private bathrooms, places to sit.... By that time my sister had already left. And then the highlights of my night started. Kaskade played an unbelievable set with on of my favorite songs from him called 4am. After dancing a couple hours, Deadmaus came on with a great upbeat set. People were going insane. But the whole purpose of my being there was for the upcoming act. ARMIN VAN BUUREN. Imagine, it was pitch dark, the light show was amazing and non other that Armin came on playing one of his best sets yet. He played songs from his newest release ASOT 2008 and 2009. Amongst many great songs he played Sivan. Ah, what a night it was. I loved it! New York clearly hosts the best in house/trance. From the flyers i received walking out, they stated that Tiesto, Sander van Doorm, Infected mushroom, Above and Beyond and Paul van Dyke were coming to the city that never sleeps...

Kaskade 4am: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkJQ3m6uilc

Armin van Buuren Sivan : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bl5fiq0_Hlk

Yesterday was a great day...

So here i am, after a great day yesterday at Randall's island. It was absolutely fantastic. I picked up my little sister who didn't really want to go, but i forced her to come! lol we took the express81 and headed to the island. Once we got there, the first thing that got my attention was the amount of NYPD cars and personnel! Wow!! then we proceeded to the "search". What a search it was...they just made me open my handbag, and the woman replied said " ok, go ahead". That's not what a call a search. Anyone could easily have brought in illegal substances and other. In such huge events in Montreal, it is the actual cops who search us. We have to take off our shoes, empty our pockets, and by gender, the cop will search you from head to toe to ensure no illegal substances or arms get through....don't get me wrong some always pass through but it is way more of a search than it was yesterday. After, we went in, and there were 4 stages:Grove Discotheque, Sunday school hilltop, Riverside arena, and my favorite the Main stage. At first we bought water bottles and went to the bathrooms witch were those blue stationary things. Filthy!! Then we walked around and stopped at the main stage where Mark Ernestus was playing. He was good, but the whole thing dragged on a little. My sister already was getting fed up....I knew it wasn't going to be long till i found myself alone in the middle of an island with thousands of people around me!

I hate fridays

Although its the beginning of the weekend im not excited at all. Every single friday will be the same...why? because i have class from 6:00-10:00pm ON A FRIDAY!! That class just makes my day that much longer...ah!

So yesterday i was telling my father about this blog and what i wrote and all and the topic of rent came back up. Now he was explaining to me that yes, housing and rent is way more expensive here in New York than in Montreal, but for a reason. The cost of living is high but the paycheques are high too. Honestly i dont think i believe him. Im not one to judge but to be living in an appartement of 3000$/months you need to be making at least 90 000$ a year no? am i crazy?? i dont think so..rent would come up to over 30G, then there is the kids (and i see lots and lots of them), schooling, extras, cars, food, heating and the list goes on...Do people work to live here? or live to work? And what about the students that live on their own studying and working? Ne how all i know is i wont be moving out anytime soon ...sadly!!!

Im excited for the electric zoo tomorrow! i dont know how to get to Randall island but ill figure it out later...One of my favorite dj will be there tomorrow Armin Van Buuren! he is absolutely amazing...

this is one of my favorite from him:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKmNHig6XbE

another ordinary day

So today woke up extremely early and went to my 9am class! Had to wake at 6:30 am and leave by 7 so i dont get caught in "rush hour" like my father says. Since my stay in NYC (2 weeks) i experienced traffic only once on a sunday afternoon coming back from Brooklyn. Its nothing like compared to traffic back home in Montreal. There, you have traffic from morning to night non-stop, monday to sunday!! Drives every montrealer CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

On another hand i notice that rent here in NYC is absolutely ridiculous! My sister moved here aswell and is going to St Francis College with a water-polo scholarship. Now, her and 3 of her teammates are looking for appartements and the prices are beyond me! 2000$/months for a 21/2 or if you are lucky a 31/2! what?!! in Montreal for that money you get a pent house downtown Montreal!!

Other than that New York is great so far! Im loving it. Its a very different feeling living here and visiting this city. There is so many places for me to discover, ppl to meet i just dont know where to start! I feel lost but im loving the discovery....

As a huge house trance fan, i am going to the zoo this weekend..yes the electric zoo at Randall island i believe. It is a two day event where a few big names in the house/trance industry play in open air! Should be fun!:)